Tuesday, February 3, 2015

In a funk...

"Don't try to figure out what other people want to hear from you; figure out what you have to say.  It's the one and only thing you have to offer." --Barbara Kingsolver
 Are you ever in a bit of a funk?  Do you ever have a bad day/week/month where you can't seem to shake that feeling?  It may not be an incredibly horrible feeling, but something is lurking there in the back of your mind and you just can't shake it.  It's keeping you from being your regular old self?
 I felt like that today.  A few things on my mind.  Nothing life and death, but still enough to put me in a mood.  You know in the back of your mind that it will be ok and yet...it still gets you. 
 Let me ask you something...do you think there's any worse feeling in the world than to see somebody that you care about go through something that you can do absolutely nothing about?  You see that person upset and you sit there feeling helpless.  What do you do?  What do you say?  I hate when things are completely out of our control. 
 I guess you just be there for support, right?  I can't really think of anything else to do.  It doesn't make it any easier though.
 I'm a worrywart.  I try not to be, because how often do I worry about things that never even happen?  Right.  Probably a lot. 
 Sometimes I feel like it's so hard to trust the plan.  God's plan for this life of mine.  Of ours.  I want to know what's going to happen, but things aren't on our time.  I know that, but I'm still not patient. 
Someday it will all make sense.  It just doesn't right now. 
 I'm so lucky to have the hubby that I do.  The calm to my crazy, as I always say.  He's always telling me to relax.  That things will work out.  That everything will be ok.  And, he's always right. 
 My favorite part of getting snow are those hours or day(s) immediately following where everything is white and pretty.  And, when you got about a foot like we did, it just feels extra pretty to look at right now. 
 All day I had this nagging feeling that I should go take some pictures outside.  I kept thinking, "Gosh, it's pretty out here," when I was playing with the twins this afternoon. 
 When the kiddos got home from school and Aaron left to ref, I grabbed the camera and went outside and just walked around our block.  I'm so glad I did.  It was what I needed. 
 I felt like it was my reminder to stop.  Take a deep breath.  Look around.  Appreciate it. 

So here's to tomorrow being a new day.  With new possibilities.  And less funk, of course. ;)

1 comment:

Julie Riley said...

Sometimes you just have to stop and make snow angels! :)